Saturday, January 3, 2015

Happy New Years/ 2014 Wrap Up

Happy new year!  I’m thankful to see a new year but I can’t begin this new year without reviewing 2014.

2014 began with me attending a homeschool moms conference.  Many times along this homeschool journey my self confidence has taken many hits.  I decided to begin 2014 investing in myself as a confidence booster.  Coincidentally I choose to focus on one word for the year.  Instead of creating resolutions I chose to focus on that word and how the lack of self-confidence affected many other areas of my life.  That led me to read a book written by Roxanne Parks the organizer of the conference.  I memorized scriptures to remind me of God’s providence.  Each week I would write one scripture on my mirror in the bathroom to meditate on. One of the scriptures that sticks out to me was Phil 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

I can not recap all the years events but 2014 was eventful.  Joshua got pneumonia, we had home renovations, Christopher had two surgeries and Emmanuel was very sick twice, our fish died, lastly my mother’s side of the family  had a family reunion, I think its been over 20 years since our last family reunion. 



Another area that stands out to me is my marriage. My marriage was really  stretched this past  year.   Marriage is a journey and the longer your united the more obstacles you’ll encounter along the way.  One area that has been a stressor between us is my desire to have more children.  Yes,I would like more children.  As crazy as that may sound I’ve always wanted a large family.  When we first got married my husband did not want as many kids as I however we agreed that we would have four and then decide if we would have any more children.  Well we never got to four kids because along the way my husband felt like we had reached our capacity.  This has been a very sad reality to live with.  My husband is the head of our home and trusting God that he is making the right choice when my heart believes we should go another direction has been extremely difficult.  Submission is not easy. Well this year I fell like I’m finally moving beyond that.  Oh it has been a journey filled with tears, anger, frustration and long talks.  Some people don’t understand my desire to have more children, while others are sympathetic to my situation.  Anyway I feel that I’m getting to a point where I can actually talk about it without breaking down into tears.  Most days I’m okay with our decision but whenever I see a little girl something happens to me.  Growing up as an only child, I just knew I would have a little girl.  I was certain of it.  My heart was prepared for a little girl and so when that day never came I was stuck on all the missed possibilities.  Don’t get me wrong, I love being a boys mom.  Boys are great and according to some they are a lot easier to raise than girls.  I don’t know but I’m grateful for my little guys I just always thought a little girl would be part of my lot.   

Aging parents has also been a pull on my marriage.  Both hubby and I only have our mothers left and both of them are well and vibrant women.  However there is a shift happening and determining which direction to go next has not been easy.  About a year ago my mother in law left Nigeria to retire in America.  We  are helping her get acclimated to life here in America but her being here has caused us to have some deep conversations like who should she live with, should we get a bigger house, what about health insurance etc. etc. etc..  Caring for an aging parent is a lot. I wish there were more literature on the subject for people my age.  There are so many things you don’t even think about until you are in the situation.  I always knew I would have to care for my parents but for some reason I always assumed that time would happen when my children were grown and gone not while I was in the midst of starting my own family.

If the above was not enough.  I applied and was accepted into graduate school.  My first semester is over and currently I have a 4.0 GPA.  My hopes are that I can maintain a 4.0 throughout graduate school. 

My children are growing and doing well.  Christopher turned 10, Joshua turned five and in a few days Emmanuel will be seven.  These boys are growing up too quickly.  They are doing well in school  and maturing into little men. 


Last year my focus was on self confidence this year my word is marriage.  I am going to work on my marriage.  I feel that there are so many ways we can take our spouses for granted and we miss so many opportunities to connect.  2015 is going to be a year for me to really focus on how I can improve my perspective about my marriage.  Although I wouldn’t describe our relationship as in trouble I do see some areas that I can improve upon. 

I’m really looking forward to 2015 and all that it has to offer. 

The boys start back school on the sixth and I begin my second semester of graduate school on the 20th.  This winter break has been full of rest and relaxation for me.  I’ve been busy at the sewing machine and catching up on recorded television programs and getting my household ready for the next semester.  Can’t wait to catch up with you all and share what’s happening with us for 2015.


Happy New Year

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

One Semester Down Nine To Go

My first semester of graduate school is officially over.  Thank goodness I survived. No I did more than survive, I kicked some college butt. In the words of my eldest son.  On my first day of class he gave me a little note that he wrote to encourage me.  My mom also wrote a nice little note to me which I read from time to time during the semester to give me the extra push I needed to keep going.

words of encouragement gradschool

This journey has left me speechless, in awe of The Almighty,  and crying tears of joy.  One day when I have the time to really compose my thoughts about this journey I will share a little more about how I arrived here at this moment.  Over on my other host site I did post a graduate school series where I shared some of the reasons I decided to pursue a graduate degree at this time in my life.  Unfortunately, I did not save them before transferring my blog back to Blogger.  I will see if there is a way I can retrieve the data and add those posts here at a later date.  

My grades posted earlier this week and I made two A’s, which means I currently have a 4.0.  The sheer fact that I’m capable of making a 4.0 13 years post undergrad school while homeschooling is a testament that there is a God!  Honestly, this endeavor would not be possible without hard work on my behalf but mercy and grace bestowed on me from the most high.  Thank You Lord!

This semester was not without its setbacks.  My previous cooking and cleaning schedule all went down the drain and I went into survival mode pretty early in the semester. We spent so much money eating out, which I have justified because we have to eat.  Next semester hopefully, we can eat  more from food prepared ahead of time. To say this semester was a challenge is an understatement.   Two of my children got sick one week I had a test and a paper due. In total I wrote 12 papers this semester.  12 papers may not be a lot for some but it was a stretch for me adjusting to APA style coming from a journalist background.   My fears were screaming out you can’t do this! What were you thinking!  This is impossible!  But the devil is a liar and yes I can and will do this with determination, love and support for those near and dear to me. My first two classes were very interesting. I found that I was very intrigued with my studies.  I’m eager to continue my studies and follow this path. My professor shared with me that she was so happy to have me in her class.  She thought my insight into the reading forced others to think on a deeper level and as a result our class discussions were very deep. She also said that she hopes that our paths will cross in the future and if I need anything don’t hesitate to reach out to her.  I’m still trying to take it all in and digest this semester. 

My winter break is in full swing and you can find me at my home relaxing with my children binge watching Netflix and washing the endless pile of laundry.  My days are filled with snuggles from my boys while sipping hot chocolate.   I’m not ashamed to say I’m being lazy.    After Christmas I will begin revising and tweaking some of our daily routines and batch cooking in preparation for the Spring semester. 

This semester has been such a blessing, more than words could probably ever convey.  My hope is that each semester will be equally as gratifying. 

I will post more about how the boys are progressing soon. 

Happy Holidays

Saturday, November 29, 2014

I'm Back!

Did you miss me? I have certainly missed you.  In case you haven't noticed is now  That's right I'm back with a different title.  The content from Random Uttering is still here now I will combine the content from Three Boys Mom.  You can pull up this blog by typing in either  web address. It will be this way until my license on Random Uttering expires.  In the mean time I am working with my header and a few other things.

Sunday, May 11, 2014

This morning I sent a few of my a Mother’s Day text which inspired me to write a poem.

To All the Fabulous Mothers
For all your hard work, love and sacrifice
For the late nights and early mornings
For all that you do that goes unnoticed
Today I acknowledge you
For home cooked meals
For bed time stories
For medicine given with love
For how you stress over the smallest details
Because you care so much
For all those days you are last on the list
For taking the little you have and multiplying it
For the impact you make
And the everlasting impression you leave on those around you
I see you
and today I acknowledge you

Happy Mothers Day from my crew to yours

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